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superbecks!

this morning as i was preparing some lessons and looking through the materials about which i just posted, i decided to take a quick break and catch up on some blog reading. because i know that rebecca (http://the-infinite.org/~becks/blog/) has committed to a month of daily posting, i went there first to catch up on a weekend of no blog reading.

i must say that i was convicted about how little i trust the Lord to provide. it wasn't just just the post from today about Jehovah-Jirah (the Lord our Provider), but also a simple story about her disfunctional car and how it is now running beautifully, with a discount, and two free meals to boot.

these, of course, are physical provisions of money and food. these are things about which i am not currently worried. but the root of my worry is still my doubt of God's provision.

as i was looking through this new and wonderful english curriculum, i became overwhelmed with all the things there are to be done and the things that are needed. there are physical things, such as dictionaries and teachers. but there are other things, like time, patience, endurance, strength, wisdom, guidance, passion, love, committment, discipline, knowledge, and i could go on and on. these are things that i cannot go out and buy, no matter how much money God provides to me. these are not things people can donate even if they wanted. they are things i can only get from my Lord, and must trust Him to provide. but He will provide. the question is, "voy a esparar?" "am i going to wait? am i going to hope?" i love the spanish word "esperar" because it means both wait and hope. it is much easier to think of it as waiting with hope, than our english words wait or hope used alone.

so this is what i, and we all, must do. espero. i wait. i hope. i trust in Jehovah-Jirah.

posted by Alexia & Jeffrey @ 9:12 AM